Well My Favorite artist says, and I quote, Grown men don't cry. Tim McGraw, " I don't know why they say grown men don't cry." Well a little more about me and I am not sure why I even bring this up here for everyone to see and comment. This might be he dumbest thing I have ever done. BUT OH well here we go.
My dad has been sick lately, he had pneumonia(I think that is how you spell it) Well now it is gone and still having problems. He went to a specialist today and well not good I should say. They are treating hm for asthma. Then to top it off, they find a lump or a knot on his lung and between his lungs. Yeah, maybe nothing. Probably nothing. Or is it, I guess we will not know for sure for awhile. I guess the news is bad enough to upset me. Could it be something, cancer, hell I don't you know. I only know for some reason it hit me really wrong today and all I wanted to do was cry and feel sorry for myself and dad.
I guess this is where I should add the, or a Little history. My dad is an alcoholic. Has not drank a drop for 25+ years, but once an alcoholic always one. It took me a long time to admit I loved him and NOW I can say that. A few years ago he pissed me off and I did not talk to him for about 1 year. Now all that is gone and now I hear that, well, he has a lump on his lung, or between them. He was not alot of info today, for the fist time he did not want to tell me about his ailment. This concerned me too. Not like him to not talk about it. I am thinking I don't know the whole story yet. So maybe that is good huh, or is it him not wanting to tell me the truth just yet.
My grandfather was my best friend and my dad for alot of years, I still miss him alot and wish he was here to talk to from time to time. I need to talk to him right now. But he is not here, this makes me want to be puss also. Now I love my dad and he might not be here long now also. What the fuck is going on here. Sometimes guys just need a guy to talk to. I love my wife more than life but sometimes guys just need to talk to guys and, it seems like today all of mine is gone or might be leaving me. So yeah, sometimes grown men cry.
Thank You for Listening. I guess the religious freak that has posted on some of your blogs, should do the right thing now and keep dad in his prayers tonight huh. Would be better than judging us for some of our stories we post here.
So for the record, yeah sometimes GROWN MEN CRY.
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Hey Tiger. I can't say I know what you're going through, I've never lost anyone close to me. All I know is there are a LOT of professional healthcare workers out there that will take care of your daddy and do everything possible to make sure he is comfortable and in as little pain as possible. Let me or Bat know if you have any questions we can help you answer. Maybe they have or will do a biopsy on his lung--that's a VERY common procedure we have both been invovled in.
Thoughts & prayers sent vertical.
PS you spelled pneumonia correctly.
Hey Tiger, this grown man cries. I don't admit that much but I do.
I've been going through so much right now with my big brother, the man who raised me, who I respect more than anyone, and I can tell you, I lost it last night. I didn't talk to my parents for more than 12 years and in those years my big brother was the one I turned to.
I love my wife so much too, but you're right - a guy needs a guy to talk to for some things.
We are not religious freaks but The Teacher and I will have you in our prayers.
Of course grown men cry! What kind of man would you be if you didn't in cases like that! I'm sorry to hear about your Dad. It must be really scary for you.
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Des
I'm really sorry about your Dad. Fingers crossed that everything will be ok. x
If more men cried in his world, it wouldn't be such a shitty place....
All men need guys to talk to, just like girls need girls sometimes. That's ok...that's just normal.
Why don't you pick up the phone, eh, and tell your Dad you're a bit worried about him? He's still there ya know. xx
Flat: All of this maybe nothing. I know none of you really know me but I have never really been scared a day in my life, all of a sudden I am and that is what is kind of freaking me out. Not sure how to deal with that.
Hella: Thank you my dear.
Biker: I guess most women don't understand. I love my wife as much as you love the teacher, but yeah sometimes guys need guys to chat with, Like I said the thought of what may or may not hppen is the part that scares the hell out of me and that is the difrent feeling I have really never delt with. Thanks freind.
Des: Yeah scary indeed. thanks babe
Miss U: Yeah, we guys do. I have talked to him more in the last few days than I have in the last month.
Thanks to you all for listening. Now I will try to get back to the good stories and pics and there will be updates soon.
25peeps now get over there and vote people LOL
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