Grown Men Cry Sometimes

Well My Favorite artist says, and I quote, Grown men don't cry. Tim McGraw, " I don't know why they say grown men don't cry." Well a little more about me and I am not sure why I even bring this up here for everyone to see and comment. This might be he dumbest thing I have ever done. BUT OH well here we go.


My dad has been sick lately, he had pneumonia(I think that is how you spell it) Well now it is gone and still having problems. He went to a specialist today and well not good I should say. They are treating hm for asthma. Then to top it off, they find a lump or a knot on his lung and between his lungs. Yeah, maybe nothing. Probably nothing. Or is it, I guess we will not know for sure for awhile. I guess the news is bad enough to upset me. Could it be something, cancer, hell I don't you know. I only know for some reason it hit me really wrong today and all I wanted to do was cry and feel sorry for myself and dad.

I guess this is where I should add the, or a Little history. My dad is an alcoholic. Has not drank a drop for 25+ years, but once an alcoholic always one. It took me a long time to admit I loved him and NOW I can say that. A few years ago he pissed me off and I did not talk to him for about 1 year. Now all that is gone and now I hear that, well, he has a lump on his lung, or between them. He was not alot of info today, for the fist time he did not want to tell me about his ailment. This concerned me too. Not like him to not talk about it. I am thinking I don't know the whole story yet. So maybe that is good huh, or is it him not wanting to tell me the truth just yet.

My grandfather was my best friend and my dad for alot of years, I still miss him alot and wish he was here to talk to from time to time. I need to talk to him right now. But he is not here, this makes me want to be puss also. Now I love my dad and he might not be here long now also. What the fuck is going on here. Sometimes guys just need a guy to talk to. I love my wife more than life but sometimes guys just need to talk to guys and, it seems like today all of mine is gone or might be leaving me. So yeah, sometimes grown men cry.

Thank You for Listening. I guess the religious freak that has posted on some of your blogs, should do the right thing now and keep dad in his prayers tonight huh. Would be better than judging us for some of our stories we post here.

So for the record, yeah sometimes GROWN MEN CRY.